Life isn’t that great for me lately. I’ve been going several series of lab tests at the hospital and been seeing different doctors. I was a bit devastated with the results of my cysts in my liver coz it had gotten bigger, not to mention I also have cysts in my kidney…sigh…what should I do?
I felt like my world stopped. But my husband told me to go on and live life to the fullest. But I am a pessimist type of a person. How can I live life to the fullest when these bothers me a lot? I could only pray for miracle.
The life that I have lately is not an ideal one coz I felt that I lived alone. I mean I am not alone but it feels like I’m alone. sigh…
But I’ll try to fight this and live the life my husband told me to do so coz I still have young kids. I want to be around them because I believed that they need me, especially my youngest child. Who will take care of her or watch over her and provide all her needs if something not nice happens to me? God forbid..
So I now I pray that I live longer. This is when I asked the heavens to heal me or allow me to live longer and enjoy my time with my family especially my children.
I know I’m emoting right at this moment but I just want to express my sadness over the news of my recent health. But if miracles do happen, then, I shall be forever grateful to Him up above for hearing my prayers.
Gotta rest now and hope to share some newsworthy things in this blog. For now, allow me to feel what I want to feel.
I stayed away from Facebook lately because all I get to see and read were rants from people about politics, their dirty laundry at home and so on and so forth. Of course, I could just ignore them but they always appear in my feeds when I logged in. I know there’s an unfollow button and I did that to some but a new one appeared.
Sometimes, I get distracted reading some links that I ended up wasting my time…sigh… So, I am now more of an Instagram person because I only get to see pictures and I only have few followers/followings… And what I love about Instagram is that I love looking at beautifully-captured pictures and that’s all.
Anyways, I hope some people will learn to control their emotions as not to post things on their social media that they will soon regret. Sometimes, I really find it ironic for some people to post about Bible verses and how they love, praise and worship the Lord and the next day, when they are upset, they cursed and condemned those people they dislike. They kept saying what a big hypocrite those people they trusted and disliked but look at them! I wish they look first in the mirror before they point fingers to the other people they despise. What’s the difference between the 2 of them? NADA.
This opinion of mine could get me into trouble, too, if I posted this there. So I shun away from posting personal attacks in my social media. Even at times I am tempted to do so just to express my anger or frustrations. But I also think of the after effects so I tried to think sane as not to add more damage to the situation I’m in.
So, I guess, I gotta live by this Social media rule: Think before you click.
After what happened to country about Super Typhoon Yolanda, many are trying to get back on their feet. Those who are not directly affected sympathized with the victims but that doesn’t mean one has to stop doing what he is doing. I understand that I should be sensitive talking about things that affects the victims, like food, but that doesn’t mean I don’t need to eat because they have nothing to eat. Our country right now is quite emotional and sensitive. However, I need to move forward also. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t help because I really did! I packed lots of my old but favorite clothes to donate them. I sent donations thru organizations or direct to the victims or thru my child’s school. But I don’t need to broadcast that. Yet some narrow-minded people concluded that I didn’t do anything after I posted activities in our city recently. They just rant and rant without asking or verifying, not even knowing that I’m a blogger and it’s my task to post some happenings in the city especially if the group I belong to (a social media group) is invited and asked to publish about the event. Anyway, to cut it short, this narrow-minded person blocked me from her list just because of that. Well, fine with me. Not my loss anyway and that person’s not important in my life. Just sounded funny if that’s her reason to delete me….
I am in a state of panic right now because I have an important thing to do few days from now and I feel like something is still lacking. I guess I need divine intervention… I hope and pray that I what I need to bring or present are already complete and I pray most of all that everything I planned is smooth and successful. I also pray for my safety while not around and most of all safety for my family. Please guide us all to the right path and please Lord, bring me home to my family safely.
I can’t think properly lately because of this and I hope this will be over soon. But with fervent prayers that what I wish to happen will come true and be granted. May You hear my pleas, Lord, and thank You for granting it.